January 2011
49 posts
I felt like you and I were the greatest plan ever made, and I had nothing to do with it. being with you made me feel that just maybe I didn’t have to plan anymore cause it felt like I was actually living. and for once in my life, I wouldn’t have to work so hard at being happy, that it could just happen.
if we never start running, then we never have to stop running away. and I guess we were never really leaving if we never really planned to stay. welcome to life, here’s what it’s like, here’s what it’s always been.
I open up to my notepad, acting like it understands me. truth is, it can’t hear me. it doesn’t listen to what I’m trying to say. but the one good thing is it can’t tell me that what I’m feeling is wrong.
I’ve written pages upon pages trying to rid you of my bones.
broken faith and wasted breath, photographs are all that’s left.
I wanted you to realize I wasn’t okay. I wanted you to know that I still wasn’t right. but when I looked at you, I couldn’t do anything but smile. you make me okay, even if it’s only when you’re around.
echoes of broken promises haunt me in my sleep. the promises I believed, the promises you couldn’t keep.
There is something to be said about two people who find each other time and time again. No matter what situations they end up in or how far apart they become - they come back to each other. Those are the people who have a little thing called fate on their side. Those are the people I envy. It’s almost like the world is saying “stop separating, you are meant to be together.”
so when the time comes to make sure that you are actually happy, and made all the right decisions at the best of you’re ability; then maybe then I will be satisfied about how i can affect your life.
I can see myself growing old with you. And I’m not just dating you to say that I am. But because I truly love you. There isn’t anyone else that I can imagine being with or even wanting to be with in my life. When I smile, laugh, sing, and I suppose be just me..its because I can love you without being someone else that I’m not. I can be me when I’m with you and I also know...
I won't.
I’m not going to ever forget what i was doing, where I was, who I was with, and wha tyou did to me.
Three years ago you left this earth. I still can’t believe it. I think of you everyday. You are never far from my mind, you and that huge head of blonde curly hair.
I know you are with God and He is happy you are home..but sometimes I wish you were here with all of us. I miss that...
I don’t want to leave you anymore.
I couldn’t be with you because of everything that you had done to me. I left because it was the only thing that i had left to do. I had to fix me before I could even begin to think about anyone else.
We are done..God didn’t take me away from you; I took myself out of the picture.
As much as I want to think that we could be so perfect for each other. We had a lot of flaws. But I also know that flaws make us who we are today, which in turn can make us better people in the end. Having a perfect relationship can’t exist only because nothing in this God given world can be perfect. It’s not the way He wanted it and its not the way things should be at all. I’m...
It's the heart break
Heart break shapes you into the kind of person you’re meant to be, because of the way it hurts.
“You have stories worth telling, memories worth remembering, dreams worth working toward, a body worth feeding, a soul worth tending, and beyond that, the God of the universe dwells within you, the true culmination of super and natural. You are more than dust and bones. You are spirit and power and image of God. And you have been given Today.”
Shauna Niequist
Waiting..for what exactly?
I don’t want to wait anymore. I choose to believe that there is nothing more sacred or profound than this day. I choose to believe that there may be a thousand big moments embedded in this day, waiting to be discovered like tiny shards of gold. The big moments are the daily, tiny moments of courage and forgiveness and hope that we grab on to and extend to one another. That’s the drama of life,...
“I don’t believe in failure, because simply by saying you’ve failed, you’ve admitted you attempted. And anyone who attempts is not a failure. Those who truly fail in my eyes are the ones who never try at all. The ones who sit on the couch and whine and moan and wait for the world to change for them.” — Sarah Dessen
“It’s just that…I just think that some things are meant to be broken. Imperfect. Chaotic. It’s the universe’s way of providing contrast, you know? There have to be a few holes in the road. It’s how life is.” — Sarah Dessen (The Truth about Forever)
strength is sometimes something we can have just over night, depending on what is thrown at us..we have to wake up and face it. no matter what. b/c its life and its not easy. there are always things that are going to try and keep us from being happy. but all you can do is say to your self is it will be alright no matter what, and jump with out thinking.
Change It
I should be used to this by now right? To tell you how fix things, and what to say. But it scares the hell out of me to think of what could or should happen. You’re my best friend and there isn’t more that I could want is to make you happy in a world without pain. You have changed me more then I could ever imagine. And the only thing that I could ask for is to change your life just as...
Please let go of the fear. Id be good to you, I promise. My heart won’t be the same. i get a little bit stronger. people don’t change, only time does. Don’t forget why you are here. I hope you heal in time. I remember you, do you remember? I’m falling, did you catch me? If you’re lost, I’ll find you. give my heart, get your strength. if you get lost I’m...
Thinking too much about what others think of you, ultimately changes what you think of yourself.
I know I’ve said I’m done with you a little too many times, but this time I’m gonna follow through. This time when you call me, text me, stalk me on facebook, I’m gonna ignore it. You think you can come back into my life whenever you please, get me hooked again, make me have some hope just to walk out once again. Sorry, but I’m stronger than that. I’m not gonna...
In making a choice, it is sometimes hard to decide what advantages and disadvantages should be weighed against one another and what losses we should endure to gain what we want, but it is even harder to abide by a decision once it is made.
In the space between yes and no, there’s a lifetime. it’s the difference between the path you walk and the one you leave behind; it’s the gap between who you thought you could be and who you really are; it’s the legroom for the lies you’ll tell yourself in the future
But here’s the truth about the truth, it hurts, so we lie. Once in awhile, Right in the middle of an ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale. there are things that we don’t want to happen, but have to accept.things we don’t want to know, but have to learn. and people we can’t live without but have to let go. things don’t have to be extraordinary to be beautiful....
So fail. Be bad at things. Be embarrassed. Be afraid. Be vulnerable. Go out on a limb or two or twelve. You will fall, and it will hurt. But the farther you fall, the higher you will rise. The higher you rise, the clearer your future becomes. Failure is a gift, welcome it. There are people who spend their whole lives wondering how they became the people they became, how certain chances pass them...
All your life you are told things you cannot do. All your life they will say you’re not good enough, or strong enough, or talented enough. They will say you’re the wrong height or the wrong weight or the wrong type to play this or be this or achieve that. They will tell you no, a thousand times no, until all the no’s become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite...
We never really grow up. We’re still who we were when we were ten, still just as immature, ready to have fun and admit that you still love the playground. The only difference is we’ve all had our hearts broken and that’s what really changed us.
Because you know me, right? You know me so well. You know everything about me: my influences, what hurts me, what helps me, what haunts me, you know it all, right? You know what I’ve been through, going through, and will go through, don’t you? You know all my choices and the reasons as to why I made them, right? Listen, think what you want when you come and mouth off about how...
No one has the right to tell you who you are and control your life, ‘cause it’s yours. Your life is meant to be lived by no one else but yourself. We sometimes let people get the best of us, destroy us, and change our opinions on what we believe is true. Only you know what is right for yourself. You have the power, you make the choices, and learn. Each experience we go through in life...
Love and magic have a great deal in common. They enrich the soul, delight the heart, and they both take practice. -Nora Roberts
Sometimes, your life really does feel like it’s caving in on you. Sometimes, people really do fee like they don’t want to exist, just curl up in a ball and go into that place between life and death. Saying, “I don’t want to exist,” isn’t saying, “I want to die.” It’s actually saying, “I wish that, for the time being, I could go somewhere...
Every day, the choices you make say what you are and who your heart beats for. -“It’s Your Life,” Francesca Battistelli
The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be.
Please, just be patient. I’m so afraid to care about someone. I know it seems like I’m this strong girl who can get through anything, but inside, I’m very fragile. I’ve had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I’m afraid of is shattering.
six words.
Please let go of the fear.
Id be good to you, I promise.
My heart won’t be the same.
i get a little bit stronger.
Sometimes when I look at you, and you’re looking back at me, I can see something. This teeny-tiny hint of something more, something you’re feeling but can’t say. When our eyes meet, it’s like we’re instantly connected. And I know no one catches it but me and you, but I like it that way. It’s like our own little secret… a place we go to when everything...
